thinking of you.

why dont i like anyone?
like boys...
i know i have my
i want what i can't have
and
if you like me
i don't like you.

i really want to get over this.
do you think if i just Do it
just get a boyfriend
and i might actually realise i like them
or i might just be really pissed of and miserable.
stuck in a one way relationship
cause i wouldn't be able to brake up with them.
don't have the heart.

maybe i might fall inlove in college
maybe i'm too fucked up to find anyone
maybe my head wont let me
i wouldn't bring a guy back to mine.
scare him into my fucked up family.
i can't imagine anyone understanding what go's on.
so i don't want to try.
i think i have commitment issues.
or i'm just a retard.