Friday, 31 December 2010

drop the other.

happy new year...
i have choosen tribe as my starting place of 2011 :)
i consider this a wise choice.
and i get to kick start it with some of my new friends :)
everything new.

Sunday, 26 December 2010

probably the best christmas ever...

although far far away from paddy he was still only a phone call away
the presents were all what i wanted...
plus chocolate.
always good.
the thought of paddy in his new onezee and me in mine makes me dream of warm cuddles.
he got me the most awesome hat of an aristocat with gloves attatched
rainbow fury leg warmers from ma and pa, Cheers :)
were them to raves!
vouchers to my fave online shop from my dads famalam (best cosin ever !!!!!)
(and ofc she wrote that last bit ^^)
hippy hoody from nan :D
and a onesee + socks from paddys famalam,
family christmas feeling going round
then i go home and its mine and paddys private crimbo :)
which is more cuddles and warmth
and a couple more presents :)

Friday, 17 December 2010

unexpected outcome

since my phone has broken down i have no brain.
it had my alarm every morning to take my pill.
it has my day to day calender
it has a to do list.
i needs to remember the pill...
this is getting embaressing

Wednesday, 15 December 2010


yesterday i had a moment...
one of those ones were you step out of your life and look at the scene your in
as though watching it through a screen.
everyone decorating the tree
like a family
but they weren't
there my friends...
and i love them.

izz all cooooll

not got any work to worry about...
got some christmas presents to make but thats good fun..
my friends are shining :)
its about that time when most high school friends loose touch a little unless they actually love you
so bassically now i have friends who really love me :)
and a good load of new ones...
i wouldn't say many from college cause i don't think i have really clicked with any of them,
but i have met alot of paddy's friendeeys
and I LUFF THEM!!!
i need to fix my phone...
before i start on one of paddy's presents
cause it helps.
then i need to think of more things for him...
okay well for now i will just put more crap on his walls :)

Monday, 13 December 2010

super epic weekend

i'm off to see paddy's performance tonight :)
and had a super epic weekend :)
happy birthday poppy,
handed in all my coursework for this term,
now i can relax and get ready for christmas
we have just started to decorate our tree :)
i feel like i'm already flourished with gifts though,
new friends, new places to go...
new opportunities etc.

Thursday, 9 December 2010

not to plan.

so it didn't really go to plan.
paddy didn't quite get back in time.
and now i have to go babysitting.
and i look silly cause i've done myself up
all pretty like.
and now i'm just going babysitting.
and i will probably look like a wreck again after
but atleast i get to see paddy then,
i just want a cuddle
and to give him my little monthly present.
that i'm not supposed to do.
cause months don't really mean anything.
they do to me.

happy 3 month :)

christmas is soo close,
basically i'm fine,
i have done all my college work...
i made sure i had this weekend to chill and not have to think about it
it's all due in on monday...
so i can relax knowing its done
and have a nice day with paddy today,
for our 3 month,
even though i accidentally said i would baby sit but only for a couple of hours,
i think he said he would be back at 3...
it's fine,
and it appears to be nice and sunny,
we could go for lunch :D
oh crap i need to apply for my provisional....
i should be learning to drive soon :)
it's my christmas present :)
and i might be getting my mums car,
(shes not allowed to drive any more)
and its awsome cause the number palte is like JRA
and thats jesse's initials
ummmm what else...
need to make more christmas presents...
i can't wait for chhristmas...

Tuesday, 7 December 2010


if i wasn't so scared of needles i would look awesome.

Sunday, 5 December 2010


jesse came round to paddy's last night
we had fun :)
jesse knows.
(because she kept seeing kittens)
paddy took me shopping :)
i can't wait till christmas
i have told people that if they don't know what to get me
go to stickyneon on glos rd,
and when i went in with paddy i just had to look at everything
and wish.

Wednesday, 1 December 2010


first time, i actually am wearing the pikachu :)
it is the most awsome thing that i have worn.
one day.. i will have one of my own..
and never take it off,
and me a paddy can pika-cuddle
lol gay.

Saturday, 27 November 2010

heres from last night.

tribe of frog

paddy's sleeping!
and were supposed to be going to tribe soon!
and he wont wake up
i even put a cold glass on his bare back and he just sat up and gave me a really evil look then went back to sleep.

Thursday, 25 November 2010

happy birthday daddy.

its my dads birthday but he's at work till likke 7!
so i have been at paddy's with ruby :)
yesterday was the protest against raising uni fee's etc.
i didn't mean to but i joined in and marched with them for a bit,
then i kind of got trapped with them cause the police closed us in...
i had not much to do anyway,
it's quite fun to see how a large ammount of people can actually over rule anything
they can close of roads, jump on cars, and for some, punch horses.
and i'm not even going to uni...
or get EMA..?


Saturday, 20 November 2010

Christmas List:

(click to view)


2.Panda Hoody from Pulp(in cabot circus)

3.Lion Hat and matching lion gloves(pink lemons or re-phsyco on glos. rd)

4.rainbow furry leg warmers (BlueBanana) tail

6.bunny hat with LARGE floppy ears.

7.pikachu onesie

stickyneon please

i dyed my hair with roooooby :)
its quite rusty red
i was going for ginger...
it's fine

and i need a slap for spending lots of money....
money i should be saving.

i might just give in to my saved up money and buy all those little things that i have always wanted...
i'mm wait till after christmas see what happens...
infact i'm going to make a christmas list
but if anyones stuck for choosing me a present Anything from StickyNeon(on glos. rd) would be just gurt ta x :D

Thursday, 18 November 2010


i tried to dye my hair red today..
but ended up throwing the dye at my mum.
she pissed me off
but i don't care cause i put my hair up to do it in sections but stormed off with it still in clips and max said it looked nice....
he never complimetns me..
so i kept it up.
and then went to se tim minchin :D
i had a chance to talk to him after the show,
but i just went all pink and shy.
but we did exchange big smiles...
i like to think that means we are now married.

my hair looking nice... i wish you could see it in these pictures...

Wednesday, 17 November 2010

coffee or tea.

jesse and co are coming here this weekend i think,
i have a studio set up in my dining room.
were going to do a shoot.
a little different to normal.
maybe i will put some pictures up...
depending on how appropriate they are ;)

today i fell asleep in the bath...
i think less late nights...
i don't need to see a new film every night paddy :)
i wouldn't mind just talking...
thats night was lovely,
and if it takes us to consume illegal things to get there,
then lets overdose?

Friday, 12 November 2010


i have been practising..

Thursday, 11 November 2010


even waisting time with you feels worth while.

Saturday, 6 November 2010


i finally re-bleached my hair :)
thanks god!
i looked terrible.
and i have applied for a job in Primark :)
i know it sounds bad,
but actually...
i think it would be cool
the clothes are okay
its relatively close,
and i get first pickings on ALL ONEZEEEEES

Thursday, 4 November 2010


dads trying to make me feel bad for not being at home...
i hate it.
he know's why i'm not at home!!
it' not my fault!
anyway it was quite nice to all have food together, paddy too
i should get some work done in my wee bit of free time...

Tuesday, 2 November 2010


i woke up today with the biggest smile...
i don't remember my dreams exactly but i kept waking up every couple of hours with a lovely warm happy feeling,
yet as i got through college i just got tired and achey
i think i fell asleep aswell
i haven't been feeling right...
i feel a little bit like i'm high...
but a bit scarier,
and more just mentally ill

i finished college at 6...
i didin't realise how fucking dark it was at 6!
i really wanted to see paddy..
but didn't want to walk through stokes croft on my own in the dark so i rang home but dad was taking mum to the dentist...
he said he would pick me up on the way
so i sat in the car for about an hour outside the dentist
and i only just got home now... at 8
paddy's gone now...
i feel silly that i cried...
but everything just seemed to of gone wrong...
and after a shitty day at college i just wanted a cuddle.
and a paddy cuddle would of been perfect...
i was even wearing his teeshirt
and hoody
and hat...
i think i might just go to bed...

Saturday, 30 October 2010

Zombie Walk...

Wednesday, 27 October 2010


gosh daaarnit
everyone's got onezee's now
i feel so much less special.
damn primark selling such cool cheap pyjamas
i think i shall go down tomorrow and get my pacman one,
then i will have... 5
and hopefully one day i will get my pikachu one i have wanted for ages
and i will be RICH in oneseeees

Tuesday, 26 October 2010


i have not been home in very long.
and i don't understand the work i have been set,
i just want to quite college and have lots of lovely paddy cudles.

Monday, 25 October 2010

tramp stamp

got a bit obssesed with tattoo's
i just kept drawring on myself.
moustache on each finger,
little heart above my bum,
barcode on my ankle
Sad man on my other ankle
paw prints on the bottom of my feets
then at ngaio's party last night i let more people draw on me,
and i want a tramp stamp :)

Saturday, 23 October 2010


i have nothing to do...


people keep pooping round my house..
i'm not normally there :)
so paddy lets them come over to his,
bessie an ruby yesterday..
i've missed bessie haven't really seen her since school
we talked about how everyone has changed or are changing,
even me and bessie have,
the two people who hadn't changed since we were in year 7
still mad,
still childish
still fun.
now she's having a slightly grown upper style of fun.
i am too i guess.
but it was fun to kick back with her and be just as silly as we used to be.

Grow Down

back in my room again...
i felt like a child.
i stay at paddy's most nights when i don't have college
and i feel a little maturer,
with a relationship, and responsibility's etc.
and i wake up in my room,
after a night out
with which of my friends i brought home next to me,
and my walls full of writings about playground secrets.
last nights clothes scattered on my floor,
and i go for cuddles with my dad
reminding myself of how i am actually still just a child at heart.

Thursday, 21 October 2010

Wednesday, 20 October 2010

paddys home

tomorrow did make me feel better :)

Tuesday, 19 October 2010


i dyed my hair..
i don't feel any better though,
mabye tomorrow will cheer me up.