why would i

mums gone out
dads gone out
Their is NO food in the house
i'm sure i could mosey something together
but why would i
i'm pathetic,
useless,
scared
my brother orders a pizza
he can afford it
he offers me some
i reject
Why?
why couldn't i just hold that slice in my hands
there is a ready meal in the fridge
no too spicy
the is noodles
but i can't use the hob
mums cake is steaming
DO NOT TOUCH
she says
i don't want to any way
i'm not hungry
my tummy hurts
empty
so why do i try to fill it with food?
WHY CAN"T SOMEONE JUST BE THERE TO LOOK AFTER ME
i am useless.cold.hungry.sad.pathetic.scared.unhelpful.selfsabotaging.childish.unabletosurviveonmyown
and i just want something to eat.