i tried.

thankyou ngaio for a lovely meal out
sorry for being so cheap

what is wrong with me?
as soon as i parted from them,
just tears,
down my face.

and so when i get in,
i can't look my dad in the eye
i just have to run upstairs
he knew anyway
and he always thinks theirs something wrong.

i can't even ask myself if theirs something wrong.

just. Charly your so fucked up

well done me.

you idiot.