it wasn't all for nothing, things have changed inside, but i still feel sad

i'm not sad
i'm not allowed to be
but can i please leave now?
it's getting too much
and no change.
i try to change
but the fact its always the same around me
doesn't help.

but okay.
shit
i think i'm in trouble here ):
they make it so Fucking hard to smile.

i thought i could just tell myself to be happy,
look at the brighter side of life.
i feel ill ):

sorry tabi ):
but Warewolf (cocorosie)
is my new fave.
it's keeping me strong
xxx