please read oor no, i don't know,

:/

i had ideas of big things to write,

but now i just feel like you've heard it all before,

i just want to say,
mum is at the worst ever
not much wine and no drugs
but she has lost it,
not in a joke way
she isn't making sense
she's hobbling around crying/shouting at nothing
she isn't acknowledging anyone else
like if someone says something she wont even realize,

i don't know it's hard to explain
and i wouldn't want you to have to witness it
i'm sorry tess had to
but luckily that wasn't the worst part
the worst part was after she left ):

but me and dad spoke, we thought about what we could do
we have done this before and nothings changed but this time i'm not letting that happen
we are going to have to get a doctor or psychiatrist to come HERE to look at mum
we asked mum if she wanted to go to see someone and she is completely oblivious to the fact anything is wrong with her,
so we have to(without telling her) get someone to come here
so she has no choice,
we should probably have to move, :/
although this house is amazing and we have made it lovely
it's not helping with anything,
it's big which makes everyone a little anti social
i think dad's planning on having a separate house to mum,
he loves her but she's causing to much pain and conflict in this house
we don't know what mum will do
she would get half the money from this house,
that would pay for a descent small house
but she would have to get a job to carry on,
maybe thats a good thing to force her,
:/
she hasn't many friends
so she has no support

sorry i don't think i'm allowed to be telling you this... D: