run away...

oh there isn't any food in the house
dad what do we have for dinner?
what do you mean go make yourself something
i can't find anything
there is toast
beans
cheese
make something
:/
do we have anything like 'a meal'
well what do you want i'm not going to get you a take away.
no i mean like a ready meal or something?
we can't afford ready meals
what do you mean there like the cheapest form of food?
no there bloody not their expensive, there just easy for people who can't cook
but i always thought that they were cheap thats why i ate them?
no,
so why the fuck have i been eating this shit all my life?
(mum enters)
can you get me some wine?
Mum Please can you just not drink just not now!
what do you mean i just want some wine
please mum your really fucking horrible when your drunk
just not tonight please!
i have to put up with it every fucking night
don't you tell me what to do i just want a bottle of wine
don't you mean a 2nd bottle?
mum please i don't want to be around when your like this
just shut up charly it's nothing to do with you
so your actually just going to choose alcohol over me?
cheers.
(i storm out crying)
(mum says fine don't get me any fucking wine i will get it myself)
(me and dad drive to tesco to get food)
dad puts a bottle of wine for mum in his basket
i look at dad and say
so after all that your just going to get her some wine
then i guess you will shout at her later for drinking it
your causing all your own problems!!
(ignores me)
what do you want to eat
I don't mind!!
Just food
Anything!!!
for fuck sake charly!
(dad storms out of tesco pushing the trolly into the shelfs)
(i have to follow)
i sit in the car and cry the way home as he shouts
when we get home i run up to my bedroom get my phone and keys and run out again
crying
i text everyone
friend please
no replys
i find naomi and ana
i'm all pink in the face
come with us
thanks,
i didn't realise they were going for a meal with everyone
i had no money so sort of sat awkwardly
everyone being so lovely and offering me food,
everyone all dressy
i looked like a tramp
no makeup
shit clothes
no socks i didn't have time to find
texting everyone
anywere i can stay tonight?
don't want to go home
no replys
everyone walking home
what do i do
its 11 o clock
its dark
i can't be on my own
no-one has even replied
jo offers e her spear room
i don't know her too well
would it be to weird?
i don't care i need somewhere to stay
and she is so lovely,
thankyou jo,
she looked after me
even got breakfast
woke up with some texts
"sorry i didn't text back last night (enter excuse)"
and i lovely voice message from ruby and ngaio
so i walked to ngaios to see them
but ruby had left
and ngaio was topped full of revision
so i stayed for a bit of scrambled egg and a biscuit
sat in the park for a while
went home
cause no-one seems to want to know.