dizzy

i woke up today with the biggest smile...
i don't remember my dreams exactly but i kept waking up every couple of hours with a lovely warm happy feeling,
:)
yet as i got through college i just got tired and achey
i think i fell asleep aswell
i haven't been feeling right...
i feel a little bit like i'm high...
but a bit scarier,
and more just mentally ill

i finished college at 6...
i didin't realise how fucking dark it was at 6!
i really wanted to see paddy..
but didn't want to walk through stokes croft on my own in the dark so i rang home but dad was taking mum to the dentist...
he said he would pick me up on the way
so i sat in the car for about an hour outside the dentist
and i only just got home now... at 8
paddy's gone now...
i feel silly that i cried...
but everything just seemed to of gone wrong...
and after a shitty day at college i just wanted a cuddle.
and a paddy cuddle would of been perfect...
i was even wearing his teeshirt
and hoody
and hat...
i think i might just go to bed...