rachel?

today was.. well, it may as-well of not existed in-fact i wished it didn't ):

i did nothing i woke up at 1 in the afternoon, after last night,

that was okay tish and naomi came round for the evening and tom,jeannie Jesse&david

i thought they might of been staying the night so i cleaned and made the beds,

but i think they already had plans to stay at davids so instead i went to walk naomis dogs with her and tish at midnight they went back and stayed at home on my own mum and dad were at a party down the pub,

but back to today, i started a big painting on my wall but got so pissed off with dad they its stressed me out too much and i just started throwing it around and getting annoyed

and mum didn't help completely shit faced as usual stumbling around shouting and screaming and being damn rude to everyone, earlier her friend lise came round and mum was just so out of order when she left the room lise just said im so sorry for you, 

it's been going on too long and it's killing dad, but he loves her and doesn't have to heart to stop her, the amount of cigarettes & wine she consumes is draining the money out twice as fast than it's coming in, she doesn't have a job and she is a general burden to all in this house, but then in the words of dad she is my mother and i must get along with her gosh, shes hard enough work when shes sober ):