addiction

i'm staying away from home.
i don't want to be in a repetetive cycle of depression.
see the problem is mum when she drinks.
because she's an alcoholic.
she turn into a horrible person
and fucks up everyone.
she starts drinking about the time when dad gets home from work
so dad doesn't get to see the sober mum.
and me and dad get the worst of it,
max is usually off with mates or in his room in the attic.

but i've had enough.
i'm staying away.
it's a shame cause i love spending time with my dad.
but he's either busy, arguing with mum,
or i'm not allowed to be his friend cause mum gets jealous!!

the other night,
the last night i stayed at home
i really was not up for one of mums drunken episodes
so when she went
"oh dave you couldn't pop down the shop and get us a bottle could yah."
so i said
"oh PLEASE! just this one night can you just NOT!!"
but he did.
he came back and i just said
"please don't give her that, please don't fuel her addiction?!!"
and he didn't really say much.
so i left.



-i get the pleasure of watching paddy play on the wii,